The Discomfort Leading to Self-discovery and Personal Growth

Once in a while something happens that shakes up our world, the self-image, understanding of how things really are, who we are. Relationships shifting or ending, health challenges, concealed truths coming to light... We get disillusioned, lost, heartbroken. We process, grieve, heal, move on.

Or not quite. It can be hard to let go of the old, of who we thought we were, of how things were, and we are not sure how to move forward. It hurts a lot! And so, we go on with diminished joy, dimmed inner light, doubting.

When you think about it, this is how our whole lives are: a series of awakenings, disappointments, confronting truths, new lessons. The only thing that varies is the magnitude of those things.

How do you not go crazy?

Identity and Mental Health Breakdown:

TRIGGER WARNING: DEPRESSION, MISCARRIAGE, INFIDELITY

My biggest "lifequake" started when my son was born. In an instant I went from in-demand, highly respected and specialized (very well paid) personal trainer who worked with dozens of clients to help heal their physical bodies (often acting as their lifecoacth too), to an... isolated, stay at home mom.

Unacknowledged postpartum depression did its thing... When my son was 6 months old, I noticed something off with my marriage. 6 months later I discovered my husband had an affair. I kick him out of the house, but after a week I discover I'm pregnant with child #2. He comes back, we agree to work things out, and as we start rebuilding our marriage and trust, I lose the pregnancy. I'm beyond gutted...

Did I go crazy? I would say so...

Depression Takes Its Toll...

For 5 years I couldn't let go, locked into an idea (subconsciously, because I didn't realize it at the time) that I had no value, because:

• I had no purpose, and my career was lost (I was now fat with a bunch of pregnancy-related complications that prevented me from reaching any semblance of my former physical fitness).

• I was a shitty mother, because I was depressed with a short fuse and yelled a lot

• was a zero as a woman in a biological sense (pregnancy loss)

• unattractive wife who drove her husband to cheat on her.

• felt so, so stupid, because the "depression destroyed my brain", and I couldn't focus, retain information, understand anything I was reading, feeling mentally dull.

Who knows what other nonsense my tormented mind was telling me... I had no mental health to speak of, no self-compassion or self-love... Therapy didn't help, medication didn't help, time didn't help, immense love for my kid and renewed falling in love with my husband didn't help either...

I was so locked into "I'm useless, worthless, ugly, stupid, BROKEN" that I could't see past that.

Intellect Leads to Stalled Self-Discovery:

Intellectually, I knew I was NOT my body, my bank account, my health status, the number on the scale, or my marital status. But if I wasn't that, then what was I? I was nothing... I wasn't able to discover what I was, because I wouldn't let myself consider that there was something else way beyond my imagination. I was stuck on my own box, seeing no way out.

Beginning to Heal with Meditation and Kundalini Yoga

After 5 years of depression, I found Kundalini yoga, meditation, and a different approach to spirituality. Through these modalities I learned I needed to start identifying that I'm a soul, to start to heal my "brokenness". I understood that INTELLECTUALLY.

My Identity Is a... Soul!

There is a difference between intellectual understanding and discovering. When you discover something, you feel it in your fingers and toes, in your skin and bones, in your heart and in your energetic field. It's the first step to embodying something.

When I DISCOVERED that my identity is a soul, everything changed:

• my world opened up with ENDLESS possibilities,

• depression lifted,

• body hurt less,

• mind started working better,

• helpful people and unexpected friends came my way,

• I discovered a purpose in life,

• imposter syndrome started melting away,

• continued healing my marriage, finding (self-)forgiveness, learning self-love

• found a new career, where I do something way more meaningful than ever before

• creativity, fulfillment, and joy flowing freely...

What took my intellectual knowledge of "I'm not my ego identity, I am a soul" from my head to my heart, going from "I know" to "I feel"?

Mool Mantra, my friend!

The most magical sacred vibration, the TRUTH, the end and the beginning. This mantra keeps giving, expanding, elevating, even though it's been a decade since I got impacted by it!

The mantra gets under the skin, it gets embedded in the subconscious mind: you wake up every morning with it resounding through your mind, reminding you that you ARE a boundless, infinite, fearless, endlessly creative soul.

You know what the mantra says? It talks about the qualities of G.O.D., and the first line is: Creator and creation are ONE.

In other words, YOU are god. You have all the attributes of the Universal Creative Consciousness, there is no difference between the two.

The Most Sacred Sound Vibration

The Mool Mantra (Mul Mantar) is a very sacred mantra: this is the beginning of Guru Granth Sahib, the sacred book of the Sikh.

One morning in late 15th century, a man named Nanak went into a body of water. Nobody saw him come out, and people were looking for him for a couple of days. It seemed that Nanak drowned, although his body was not recovered.

Three days after he went in, he came out from the same body of water as if nothing have happened, muttering something. On his lips, something that was never heard before: the Mool Mantra.

Guru Nanak Dev Ji was the founder of Sikhi and the first Sikh Guru. Even though here in the west we know Sikhism as a religion, it was something more than that: a beautiful culture and a revolutionary movement, based on equality of all the people (unheard of idea in India of that time, where the caste system was strongly adhered to), social justice, tolerance of other religions, and service to humanity.

Mool Mantra for Personal Growth, Self-Discovery, and Healing

The beautiful and uplifting vibration of the Mool Mantra affects you even if you don't know its words and meaning. It interacts with the electromagnetic field and starts working on the subconscious mind.

If you're feeling stuck in your earthly, human condition (whether it's physically or mentally), if you feel limited, like you have no options, like you're missing something, I WHOLEHEARTEDLY invite you to join us for the 40 days of the Mool Mantra.

Discover what's possible, even beyond your imagination.

Please know, if you're experiencing financial hardships that prevent you from joining, but really wish to participate, reply to this email! We can work something out for you to participate. I want this for you!

With love and appreciation,

SevaRam